Seeing Clearly!

This month has been quite interesting. It has been one of revelation not just for me, but for those close to me.  As I write, some conversations and dealings come to mind that have removed the scales from my eyes and that have opened my ears to the true character and nature of those that have been entrusted with my heart. We all know what happens when the covers are removed from those who have operated in deceptive practices. There comes a swell of emotions. The feelings of hurt, betrayal, anger and most of all rejection surface and sometimes take over. 

Everyone wants to feel accepted and valued. We can pretend that we don't need or want validation from anyone. But on some level we all do. And it's perfectly normal if you do. It's natural to want to be a part of something or to know that we are loved. God created us this way. So when we are not valued, accepted or made to feel as though we are not loved we tend to make decisions and choices in life that sends us on a destructive path. We loose focus of what we are called and purpose to be and we began to seek validation instead of seeking purpose. 

I know this to be true because I have been there. Yes, I allowed my desire to be valued make me a victim; a victim to toxic relationships, situations and thoughts. Thoughts that I wasn't good enough, smart enough, eloquent enough created insecurities within me about my God given talents and gifts haunted me. And whenever I came in contact with someone who criticized or manipulated me for their own selfish gain, it would send me into a place of depression and self-loathing. That's when the feelings of inadequacy would come in and I would loose my focus. It was a vicious cycle that I repeated for a long time. But today I can emphatically say that after a lot of God searching, praying and being honest about myself and those close to me, my vision became crystal clear! The more I allowed myself to get caught up in this destructive cycle the more I was hindering myself! I had to first realize and know my worth and know that I matter. If I cannot value myself, how can I expect anyone else to value me! Then I had to realize that my validation does not need to come from man but God. I accepted the gifts he blessed me with the gift to create, inspire and encourage. Really, that's what truly matter - the calling and purpose on our lives.  Nothing else matters! And the most important lesson of all is that I could no longer give anyone that kind of power over my life. I gave their maltreatment of me meaning. 

I want to encourage you that if no one else values you and the contributions that you have made in this life, know this, our Father values you. You are important. You matter to Him. You are special and unique and he knows the greatness and purpose in you. Why? Because He created you and He created you with a divine purpose. Cast down the fears, and insecurities. Don't allow the dark cloud of the circumstances or the revelation of the true relationship to blind you anymore! The light has shown through the darkness and every obstacle and hinderance has been revealed! He has allowed you to see clearly the blue sky of your destiny. Don't you look back, only ahead to fulfill it.

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